Dreams..

" He loves you.. He loves you so much till the extent that he was willing to sacrifice his love for you.. I do know that because it's all written in his eyes"

Have you ever felt so connected that even in silence you could actually know what is inside his/her heart? That was my reply towards this weird dream I had last night.. Maybe the effect of Raya "alcohol" drinks had caught the better of me LOLOL..

This emotional haunting "disease" that I'm having is not on a daily basis.. Most of the time I would just keep myself busy so that I will not fall into it.. To put it in other words.. I prefer to run away from anything that is bad, hurtful or any negative stuff that is the last thing that you want to experience in life.. And I'm really happy with it.. This whole running away thing. Period. But above all,  I thank Daddy God for constantly listening to me when I'm on this emotional "turmoil" or "self emotional battle".. If it's just some sort of a "karma" that is here as a lesson for me for rejecting guys and unintentionally hurt them.. I accept this with an open heart.. I know I deserved this test of faith..

I could always tell myself that I'm pretty sure that a guy is the right one for me when I meet him.. But that was last time.. I'm not even sure myself what I want now.. It's like my head is pretty screwed up.. Confused.. Blinded.. Someone once said that if I'm gonna be in this state then even when the right guy steps into my life, I will not have recognized him myself.. And I certainly do not want that.. So, I need God's compass.. God to put me back on track..

Dear Lord, I just want You to know that no matter how long or how hard this might get.. I will never.. NEVER lose trust and faith in You.. I know You have something really good in store for me.. Something is telling me that.. That all those silent cries and prayers sent to You will be answered in the end.. I could feel them right to my bones..

“I think that sometimes we get caught up in this whole idea of finding our prince, and living together in love and being in this wonderful godly relationship that we forget that it will get hard. There will be times when life will happen, and the storms of life will threaten that godly relationship and that it won’t be perfect. God will bring you a prince but don’t expect him to come in robes and in perfection, because that’s part of the reason why God brings this man into your life anyways. He brings him into your life so that you can show him the love of Christ - the undeserved kind of love, the love that gives without expecting anything in return, the love that comes without conditions. Godly love says that the storms of life will come, but that we won’t have to rely only our love to keep us together, but that we will have God as the One who is holding us both.” — Sisters of Infinite Worth

VIVA Presentation for this 3 years of degree life is FINALLY DONE! Tiring but it was all worth it! Praise the Lord for that! And thank you dear team members for the effort and dedication.. As a team leader, I'm very blessed to have you guys!